My Blog,My lifestyle…..Happy or Sad….Hope u r juz beside me~

Actually i dono wat i wanna write…jus feel tat it has been a long time tat i din update my blog~suddenly rmb sumting funny…”Bcoz of the LIGHT,i cannot c wat i WRITE,so…thank you!”haha…whoever no where did i get tis joke,pls leave a comment in tis entry ba~~

I can say tat, 3/4 of my life spent on WAITING!! I’ve been WAITING for my COE letter (Confirmation Of Enrolment) for few weeks…at first i tot i can change agent,use Ausxx may be easier for me as its jus nearby my house…but who no,after 1 week, QUT replied an said tat they don allow us to simply change agent,an they reject my request…wasted 1 week WAITING…so,i hav to post my documents bk to INTI…WAIT for another 2 days, INTI email me to inform me tat they receive my documents an will process it…then, i WAIT for another 1 week..until now,no news of my COE yet…after receive the COE,i hav to do body check up an apply for visa…an i think hav to WAIT again…omg~

WAIT~~yaya…I’m also WAITING for Digi to send me the good news tat i wish for so long…lazy to explain, is jus tat i use my postpaid bonus point to redeem for a limited phone…i’d WAIT for 2 weeks,but they haven update their website (the winner list) yet…so slow~dono i can get or not…actually i wish i can buy a new phone (my current phone edi use for nearly 4 years),a new camera,an a new laptop before i go to australia…to get a new phone,new camera an a new laptop at a time is not easy as my family is not rich,although sumtimes my pattern seems like im “thousand gold big lady” coz many thing dono how to do…haha!besides,i never dare to ask for anything after my parents paid for my 1st semester’s fees for my studies in australia…the bank draft can buy few Kancil edi…so i tot maybe if im lucky,i can get a new phone without paying a cent…camera is not really necessary as my sis ald got 1 quite new…but laptop~i really wish i can get a new 1…

im always thinking maybe i can find a part time job to earn sum money,an at least pay half of the price,IF i really wan a new laptop..but i’ve been babysitting my nephew for 2 months at home…i cant work,coz nobody else can take k of him…an now,my younger sis is going to hav her year end holiday…so i tot maybe i can go find a job now…but think twice many times,i still dono wat i can do besides study…no use right??but bo bian,i no i’ve been use to the way being protect by my parents for 20 years…its the time to learn sumting…

an IF possible,i really wish to learn to drive in december,when my bro is free,he can teach me…many of my frens tot i haven get driving license yet~but sorry lo…i ald get my license few years ago…an my license is without “P” 1…we got enough car at home,an i got license,is jus tat i cant drive…the same thing,tis is the way my parents try to protect me…although they wan me to take driving license,but they dowan me to drive…they willing to fetch me everywhere i wanna go,even if i wanna go pak toh with my bf…they will fetch us there,then when we finish watching movie or my kimchi ramen,they will cm to fetch us bk…maybe sum ppl will think its weird to let ur parents to drive u an ur bf go for date,but im ald used to it an i think its sweet~~hehez!!

last thursday i went to renew IC with my bf…we reach there around 9.45am an we WAIT for 4 hours at the office jus to renew IC…luckly im patient enough…my bf get crazy coz he don like to wait…kesian ms HL,acc us wait for 4 hours doing nothing…haha!!at last my bf able to done his IC at about 2pm..but bcoz of the data problem,i cant do my IC after WAITING for 4 hours…God bless, its me who cant do the IC,not my bf…if not he will burn the whole gov office down…haha!!then tat evening i hav to go again an finally i done my IC…quite relief now…jus need to WAIT for a month to get my new IC…haha!!coz actually the chip for my old IC cant be read,an the plastic ald tear out…i dono how is it,it jus tear out suddenly…hehe!!

btw,im ald lucky enough as my sis jus came bk from Scotland tis year…so when im going to Australia next year,i no need to buy luggage bag,boots,winter clothing an stuffs…hehe!!jus wish tat we can find a house earlier…nice nice 1~~

on the journey to the future tat awaiting me for so longggg~~

其实真的有点生气。因为刚刚本来就已经写好的，可是刚写完的时候突然wireless断了，整篇都不见了。现在又再写一次一定跟刚才的不同了。讨厌！不过还是想写。。。

只要是真正认识我的人就会知道，我是一个不喜欢接受事实的人。也不是说完全不能接受，只是不想接受一些我讨厌或跟我生活方式不同的事。本人只要是遇到不爽又不想接受的事或自己能力不能解决的事，就会哭。可能大家会想我是个爱哭鬼，可是有时侯哭一哭，问题还真的会解决啊！嗯。。。最近本人好像又遇到了自己没有能力改变的事实。可是本小姐我就是不喜欢＂看开＂两个字。我讨厌看开！我为什么要看开？我知道总有一天我会有能力解决的。只是时间的问题。

就像小学的时候，常常会有rencana，也就是默写。可能是欠缺理解，所以常背不进脑。边背边埋怨老师。有时候真的背不进，又好累的时候，就会哭。搞得爸妈都担心。问题是哭完了还不是要继续背。可是，哭完了，头脑也清醒了很多，很快就可以背熟然后就可以睡觉。还有在中三的时候也是这样。要知道，本人对付数学的功力是有限公司。所以常常做作业做到头昏脑涨。很多时候干脆拿朋友的功课来抄。就在PMR之前，本人终于决定拼它一次。认识本小姐我的人也一定会知道，本人从来都不碰书，可是那一次就真的想去拼。可是坐在那里半天，还是看不懂，重点是不知道自己哪里不懂。然后就突然哭了。坐在对面读书的大姐好像也被吓到了。爸妈这次还真的担心了。可能是PMR的关系吧！他们好像都被我突然读书又突然大哭的举动吓到了。咳！可是最后还不是考了个A回来。所以说哭一哭还真的有用。现在大家应该都了解为什么本人的SPM并没有考得很好了吧！因为那时我没哭。哈哈！只是拿了成绩才哭，好像有点太迟了。过后选学校的时候也因为跟爸妈的意见不同而又哭了。到最后还不是跟着爸妈的意见去Sunway，也还不是混完了一年。只是又是因为数学，不知道为什么不及格，被卡在半路，前途茫茫。要知道，数学对理科学生是很重要的。可是偏偏被本人放弃。本小姐最讨厌被卡着的感觉了。一样的，我又哭了一回。可是到最后还不是转去了商科，在Inti不知不觉混完了两年，而且成绩还不错喔！现在就只是在等着飞去澳洲。在Inti的时候也因为社团活动而哭了几次。到最后还不是顺利的办完了那些活动。

也可能是因为我哭了，所以上帝就赶来救我。嘻嘻！妈常说，只要你真的相信上帝，他就会陪在你身边，帮助你。也就是因为这样，给了我力量去相信，问题一定会解决的。是真的喔！记得小学的时候，本人就已经是这样模模糊糊的了。常常忘记带书本或是忘记要交费。可以的话当然是打电话给妈咪叫她带给我。有时她不得空，我就会在老师还没进课室之前就拼命祷告。最后老师不是请病假就是突然要去开会不能进课室更不然就是心情好，让我们明天再交。这种事情发生不止一次两次，而是在六年内发生了超过十次。厉害吧！不止，很多时候当我想要一些东西的时候也会祷告。记得三年前，我有一个时候有想要几个东西。但是没能力买。过了一个星期，我就一样一样的得到了，而且是别人送的。不相信？哈哈！可是有时候祷告了很多次还是得不到。可能是上帝有他自己的打算吧！他知道什么时候该给你什么。当他不给你的时候就代表那个东西并不该属于你，或者是时辰未到吧！

最近本人遇到的问题就有点难。人嘛，长越大，遇到的问题也就越大，不是三两下就可以解决的。因为其实它还没发生，是未来将发生的事。我知道烦恼这些事有点多余，但还是不停的想。这就是本人的pattern。明知道以本人的智商是想不出办法的，可是就是硬要去想。想了很多还是想不到的时候就又哭了。因为虽然说本人的复原能力比常人强，比常人快，最多不是哭个半年，哭饱了，没眼泪可以流了，又可以再继续闯。但是还是不想再受什么伤了。这次真的是最后一次机会了。所以还是应该要好好计划一下，以防万一嘛！哈哈！我知道我可以的！我相信when He bring you to it, He will bring you through it。

最后还是要说，宝贝，我真的很想你。我知道我们一定会一起解决未来的事的。对吗？可是不要再叫我看开了。我是坚决不会看开的。爱你喔！哈哈！

Omg~wat a relief for me…jus pass up the toughest assignment ever!!the HONORABLE FIN303…until now,i still dono wat actually the assignment is about.but forget it…baby an i done our best for it…from busy-ing for preparation of onite,until the actual onite on last wednesday,then continue with fin tutorial which we passed up on tuesday,operation mgt due on wednesday,HRM due on thursday,and the last and toughest FIN303 which due today…i had never sleep properly since then…even dream tat im sentence to death,so scary…so busy for assignments,tutorial,an case study until no time to go "The Idol"…really sad lah!!ppl say last semester should enjoy as much as u can..but i don even hav the chance to watch onite or the idol…WASTED LAH!!!an today im going home again to see cute little wang…

actually in my mind,i always tot onite haven past yet coz i don hav the chance to watch the show.as a voc,i hav to care for the female participants in backstage.not fun…but not "at all" lar~~its good to act as if im a big sister an care for the participants although they said i look younger than them.coz normally others care for me an i never had the chance to be the one who care an encourage ppl.funny to tell them "gambatte","don panic","must rmb to smile ya",when im the 1 who was so nervous..actually i think if the modelling coordinator did not relax like a vase an make herself as if she is an audience with a committee name tag, but help to taking care of her "children", then i should hav the chance to walk away an watch the show at least little bit.coz not many things hav to do in backstage,jus hav to take k of the participants an their things,help them with the costumes…i don even had a chance to peek from behind.tat make me feel bored an is like a "vase" voc…not busy like last onite,run here an there,counting the marks with ms joana…tat only fun an got the feeling of belonging in the committee~wat a disappointment for me…my last semester and last onite…WASTED!!!

Still rmb tat before the onite ticket settled,i cried…bcoz im the 1 who hav to make decision an settle things if anything goes wrong.i cant rely on other ppl.but every1 no tat im not an independent girl.the ticket bring a lot of problems to me.to release the stress,i went jogging with baby an huey ling.but tat make me feel so tiny an more sad~they keep running an running like normal,but i was like so tired an cant breath smooth after a short run.hav to stop an stop an stop an they hav to wait for me.i was thinking tat im really useless…cant run…an cant even settle the ticket problem which is only a small matter.actually i no it is a small problem,but i jus cant solve it.tats y i cried…so disappointed of myself.i really think im not a good leader.coz im so blur an keep forgetting so many things,make the secretary,ticketing,booklet an publicity so suffer.Kevin hav to take k of so many things but he still able to do it so good.an at last they go ask help from huey ling,nv ask me anymore.i feel like sooooo useless tat time.wat the purpose to be "voc"??feel like the typical person for last semester onite..although i’ve told myself not to be like the typical person.but at last….haiz!!i’ve told u all lor~i cant do it 1…finally with every committees’ help,we finally done onite again…but criticise by sum1 very "big card" in our school bcoz of 2 mistake made during the show…sad~make our effort not even worth a cent!

Oh ya!!i rmb another person!!the stupid bold guy always sitting in the office jus opposite hostel block D..the "S"!he scold us an also indirectly scold Dr.Sia…actually i sent memo to the office but "S" not there.then i pass it to the INEFFICIENT AND INEFFECTIVE office girl in the office,ask her to pass it to "S".at last she din pass to him but keep my memo in a stack of papers.for wat??fun??then we hav to go an c "S" personally..we hav to confirm whether got guest room or not.need to prepare for our performers from outside who need to stay overnite at hostel.NO ROOM SAY NO ROOM LAH!!!he scold us LIKE HELL~i think he jus take us as his temperbin.throw all his anger on us.we jus ask 1 thing but he keep scolding so many thing an even say about Dr.Sia wat wat wat…he said we student always find Dr.Sia an she will agree watever we said..wat student don understand their operation,they got a lot of things to do..bla bla bla~~who wan to understand ur stupid ineffective plus inefficient operation oh!!my parents don even scold me an he dare to scold us like nobody!wat the hell he is…jus a "S"…i no every1 will no him now,YES,THE "S" in AO..HEY, "S"!!u’re famous now,happy??scold lah~scold more…

Finally im quite free now an can write blog…i wanted to write right after onite but too busy for all those assignments..i tot maybe i’ve forgot some points tat i wanted to mention at first…oh!!an the B an G~wat a GOOD operation too…our secretary sent memo an booked for 18 soft board but at last we hav to get the board by ourselves behind MPH.but only got 3..then in the morning before onite,we go an ask for 15 more boards tat we required.wat they said??"NO MORE SOFT BOARD"…say like none of their business~we were rushing an really need those for our backdrop leh!!an we realised so many clubs an societies using the soft board tat time..no wonder no more board.but,the thing is,U ALL DON HAV SO MANY BOARD THEN Y U ACCEPT OUR MEMO AN ALSO OTHER CLUBS’ MEMO??!finally we hav to go find ourselves AGAIN~so sorry to LSC coz we took ur board…it was so rush…at last we return those board right after onite finish coz they also rushing to decorate the board…Hey,understand or not??next time count ur boards before accepting all the memo!!an hor~y r u all keeping those new soft board but dowan to borrow to us??fun??

besides,ytd SAO called us bcoz they said sum students throw chairs into swimming pool an they suspect it happened right after onite..an tats going to be our social board problem AGAIN~but huey ling an baby got class,so i go to see the head..at last,she said "no la no la~nothing edi..its AUP club’s event…not Onite" then wat for they wan to suspect us an call us before checking the truth??!y they like to blame everything on social board an onite??fun??very sien lor~~

i realised most of  the department like to make fun of us…dono wat actually happen…when we r good,then they will love us,treat us like frens an say like we r the best an heaven…if we did sumting wrong,even a small mistake,they will criticise an scold us like hell…is tat the reality of the society??thanks for teaching us these before we get shock when we really go out to the real world…

Y m i so happy??although im sick now,dono wat happen…but i still feel happy…

tonite my parents an younger sis going to London to meet my elder sis…they going for travel an for my sis’s graduation…so good!!she graduate edi o~~Now she is the real Ms Pretty Pharmacist…hoho…i cant go with them coz still hav to go for classes…an tis is my last sem in Inti…cant play play lar~im going to Aussie next year…so i will hav my own trip there…its ok~how bout my bro??of coz he cant go also…coz "Little Wang" is coming to tis world soon…i think end of tis month gua~haha!!They will cm bk a day after onite..which is 3rd of july…bout 2 weeks more…cant wait to meet my sis!!an finally got ppl can 38 with me liao…we plan to go sing k an eat all the things which she wish to eat (i mean i wish to eat)…haha!!

erm~an last wednesday i got my merit award…hoho!!although sum ppl might think tat tat is nothing,no money,only a certificate…an sum might even think tat it is a normal thing for them to get the cert as they able to get it every semester…but tis award is a big thing for me!!although i cant say tat i work very hard for it,its jus too lucky to get good result…at first very excited to go for the award presentation…the 1st time an the last time..but slowly,i start to be afraid of going up the stage(with my new high heels)…luckly Mr Dog also there an he is also get it for the 1st time…both of us was soooo nervous but after tat we start to get bored of waiting an Mr Dog slept during the presentation…at first ,when we get into the MPH,i only realised tat im not really sooo good as i think to get a merit award…there is so many ppl there to get it too(at least 200ppl)…sum even get wat "President Honour","Dean Honour" ,and "excellent award"…wat i get (merit award) is the lousiest award lol~~haha!!i realised only few ppl (included me) feel so nervous an excited during the ceremony…as those who able to get president,dean honour an excellent, they r not nervous at all…maybe they get it every sem an used to it edi lo~~but the opening quite impressing lo~~i like it…all those Professors,Dean and Dr wear their special costumes walking in…WOW!!!!they got different costumes and hat 1 lor~~i like 1 of the suits which look like the costume for emperor…really really nice~an the hat,omg nice loh!!i wish i can be like them 1 day…get a Dr maybe…haha!!still long way to go la….if cant be Professor or Dean or Dr,i will buy a set of the costume an wear it at home…hoho!!sot pluck~~

finally there is a special thing happen in tis sem at Inti…me,baby,huey ling an kevin r going to help out for the visit of those high school ppl tomolo…y don i say high school children??coz Vj said they r form6 students whom r 19 yr old…an they surely taller an more mature than me (scary)…tats y im not going to say they r children…the best part is not the games tat we r going to play or the wages tat we can get…the thing tat make us so excited is the Inti t-shirt tat we can get…hoho!!the orange shirt…nice 1 oh!!!however,Dr Sia seems like quite worry bout us in helping the visits things…coz we r new an inexperience…besides,hav to speak english all the time even among ourselves…tats the problem…but don worry la Dr Sia…I no we can do it…arent we did well for the Bull Riding last week for Inti Carnival??hehe~~an from wat Vj told us,tis type of job normally done by "model students" in Inti…but now they r all last year students…so now he try to use new students…like us…although we r last sem now..haha!!actually im quite worry tat nobody will listen to me tomolo an i cant communicate well with those catholic high school students…but i think its still a good try for me…maybe it will be fun…but the thing is,i hav to recover from my fever 1st…if not i will not be able to help tomolo…haiz!!

*ps: the karipap for the award ceremony did not come out to be as nice as wat everyone talking about…

Tis afternoon when im watching astro, artistes 512 charity fund raising show, i suddenly got a question in my mind…then after tat i try to ask my bf…but at last he giv me a fedup face an said "its totally different issue!"So…i din get the answer yet…i din continue my question to avoid getting scold by him again~~

My question is tis: those ppl in Sichuan get the punishment from our mother nature; ppl there try so hard to find survivor; every country in the world try to raise fund an giv watever help to the ppl there; those ppl who get hurt try to survive eventhough they hav to cut their hands and legs, also wanna live on…But, ppl whom like us,so healthy an able to get all the hapiness, frens and family all around us, they wanna smoke an hurt our mother nature, an make themsleves die earlier??

isnt tat weird??i wonder is there any1 who think like me…or m i really too free to think such a stupid question??sum ppl can do watever to survive in tis world, but sum try to get out of tis world…maybe they can change their role…those smokers can takeover those who don wish to die but die in the earthquake…our mother nature will not get pollution bcoz of smoke also…happy ending…don u think so??

Wake up from those thought of mine…o’nite is coming again…Yup~AGAIN!passes 3…now will be the last for me..my last semester in Inti…from a "Ke Po Ji" to "Super Helper" to "secretary" and now "vice organizing chairperson"…time really flys~~i really get to no a lot of frens but also losses a lot of frens…(not bcoz i got bad attitude,they going to aussie lah!) so afraid tat we cant do well tis time…coz a lot a lot of new members…ppl whom really no me, will no tat im not a good leader…i can only listen to command an do watever ppl ask me to do…i cant giv command!!i really blur an dono wat to do, but im learning…sorry to those who r under me, pls try to bare my "blurness"…

an my studies~maybe bcoz my timetable is too free…everyday 1 class, only tuesday got 2 class…always don feel like going to class…lazy to wear nice nice liao~~only for 2 hour, wat for wear nice nice…??bored~~HRM still ok lol~~Fin303 bored an hard to understand, operation mgt no need to say, bored like shit an the lecturer suckz…if i cant go to aussie bcoz of tis subject, i will really curse tis lecturer~~

my relationship~~i dono…still the same gua…but his temper is coming up again…maybe the weather too hot gua~~fluctuate his temper…1 second smile an act cute, another second scold like hell…jus try to avoid getting scold, better don talk too much~~hohO!!

Vean ah Vean…when r u coming back…Da jie ah Da jie…wanna come back liao ma??im so bored~~an pig william never reply my sms…xiao bai~happy-ing so is ok…ee ling seems great~got car liao hor!!haha…i lyn ler??ok gua~~so many ppl im missing…where r my frens??i hav no fren liao….

O’nite finally finish~yet,my job haven done…i still hav to search for the missing mutiple pluck~bull shit~~dono who is the 1 who borrow it from SAO,an took it bk home.if really cant find it bk then i dono wat to do liao…besides,jus realised tat they also borrow 4 scissors from SAO….nv return again…omg~~i lost my own scissors an blade too…pls pls pls…who took it bk home,pls return it to me…its a purple little scissors an a yellow blade.

btw,a lot of ppl congrat us for the success of o’nite…i think it is mostly the help of our commitees,especially program master…they really do v well an all the programs run so smoothly…but…i still think tat we should not be too happy or proud for the success…coz it may be jus getting lucky tat day…if we can do as well,or better for the next semester,we can only make sure an confirm tat it is our own hardwork to be so good…hope we can really do better for the coming semester an get all the lessons for those things or decision tat we made it wrong tis time…gambatte everyone!!

besides o’nite,hav to talk bout my own feeling…dono y,before an after o’nite it is still the same feeling…moody although nothing wrong happen around me…although i got a lot of new frens tis time….it still cant cover the weird feeling of me…i jus wanna find out wat the the  root of the feeling…is tat my studies??i don think so…im always happy go lucky in my studies…then wat is it??!!i really dono…seems like it was my dear baby who make me confuse…but not really him~~

many things to think about…for me only~coz ppl will think tat it is not a problem…it is jus nature…when im free,i started to think bout my own phylosophy…its the same bout cigerette,smokers,clubbing,liars those idiot things…but i still cant get an actual answer…i dono y im so sensitive bout all these tat is none of my business…an i keep cursing those ppl…seems stupid…ya~its sure stupid…but im sure tat is not me but those ppl…

btw,during the dance floor time on o’nite,i warned 3 person who smoke in the hall…i jus hate it~i cant bare the smell an no time for me to think bout wat they will do to me if i warn them an ask them to stop smoking…i jus went forward an tell them to stop…an they seems like 3 stupid asshole act as if they are the coolest shit in the world…especially 2 of the ugly witch…i jus think tat,no matter how hansum,how pretty or how talent u r,when u hold a cigerette in ur hand,u r jus bull shit…wat else for the 2 witch…jus cant compare them wit any things,even non living things in the world…they jus suckz~~

today the lecturer say sumting tat make me think bout my thought~~i forgot wat is it actually…but he make me think bout my phylosophy again…i jus start angry when i see sumting tat i think is wrong…maybe tis attitude is wrong…it is immature…ppl always say tat we hav to face the true world…we cant aspect everything to be holly…when u face the world,then u can be happy…maybe im the 1 who cant face the true…tats y i always not happy…but i rather to be not happy than to accept those idiot shit…

last few weeks i got a weird idea…bout cigerette of coz…when im thinking of those idiot shit things…maybe 1 day i will try to ask a smoker…"wat do u think an no about cigerette?" i wanna no wat they understand bout the little tube of shit…for me, a cigerette is jus a little paper wrapping some dry leaves…an those idiot moron will put it at their smelly stinky horrible mouth,burn it,an suck it….imagine,they r sucking the smoke from the burning dry leaves an paper…into their mouth,their lungs,their brain…they hav no brain cell to think anymore…they r jus like a vegetable…oh no!!not vegetable…even vegetable is smarter than those "living little creature"…i really look down on them…i dono y…

most of my frens no tat im going to major in economics…according to my lecturer who got bachelor an master in economics,they hav to pass up a research for their studies…an i think now i already got my research topic eventhough im jus in the 2nd year of degree…its jus like wat my 1st research assignment…its all bout cigerette an smokers…i think i wont feel better before i find the actual answer for these…

he is jus like a standing fans for me…turning side to side…when he turn to me,i feel great an happy eventhough im tired…when he turn to the other side,im jus nothing to him eventhough i try to get his attention…make me confuse…but i dono wat to say an how to say…anything i say will only make it worst…i’ve tried before….i had promise myself to be strong an independent…no more crying…although i did wat i promised,but i don really feel happy as all the things i do is not me…not myself…im not a person who is strong an independent…i like to cry…cry whenever i like to….even nothing make me sad,i can also cry…tat is y God giv me a pair of eye which can cry when im not clear for my path..not clear of where im walking to…

God givs me a brain which think about things tat ppl normally wont think about…He givs me eyes which cry for injustice an inhumanity…no matter wat ppl think of me or do to me…i will stand on my own right path…an do anything to prevent those evil to turn my path into darkness…i hate darkness an pollution…its 1 of the reason i hate clubbing an smokers…I will do anything to eliminate the idiot habit of human being… as i was told by God…To stand on my own path…do not giv up eventhough there is no 1 who stand on the side 2gether wit me…

—–When God bring u to it,He will bring u through it—–

Wow~~wat date is today??its 22nd january 2008!!haha~me an baby ment been together for 1 year!!its a special day although we didnt manage to celebrate…coz both of us very busy for the coming o’nite plus other stupid ppl who did sumting stupid tat make us more busy an headache…the sad thing is,i cant manage to buy or make a special present for baby ment…haiz!!i no he made a present for me,coz last week accidently saw it..wahaha!!an he angry of me…sien diao~~today hav to wait after 6pm only can meet him…coz the management loh!!set our time table sooo…."not nice"…cant blame~plus,tonight will be having another meeting..after meeting will hav to do the banner…i think no time to be alone with him for our anniversary liao lah~~sob sob…

it seems like settled now but still got sum uncontrollable feeling towards those stupid ppl…banner,sponsorships,memo,projector,board….everything jus rewind in my mind especially memo~coz i jus suddenly bcum  the secretary…the main job of secretary is memo~hate it…but it seems like the easiest job to do compare to all of them…thank god…actually im afraid to communicate wit stranger,but now im forced to…coz hav to find tis officer an tat person to get wat wat wat an ask for wat wat wat…i really afraid to talk everytime…luckly always got xiao qian to acc me…btw~hav to speak in english…lagi teruk..haha!!but i no i already try my best to change…from a person who "bring everything to tomolo an tomolo again" until now can do it today if it hav to be done today…

last time i jus ke po wit my baby an help him if he need sum little help…tat 1 feel more fun an happy lol~~now i really take the job,it doesnt feel tat good actually…i feel tat it was really a easy job to be a audience to watch the event on the day…its hard to be the maker of the whole event…many things hav to be done before the grand day of our dream…im sure tat on the day itself,we will be more busy…run here an there…omg!!cant imagine…

pls ppl~~pls support our coming Orientation Night on 20th February 2008!!!!not only Mr an Ms Inti competiton…we hav a lot of special performance too!!we really work very hard to bring u a more special O’nite…if u don come,it will waste all our sweat an effort…an u will miss the great day in Inti!!U R NOT A INTI STUDENT IF U NEVER WATCH O’NITE BEFORE…jus remember to come…

DREAM WITHIN A DREAM,ORIENTATION NIGHT JANUARY 2008,MR AN MS INTI COMPETITION ORGANIZED BY 12th INTIMA SOCIAL BOARD!!

ps: no other club can organize the "Mr an Ms Inti" event in Inti-UC,but only Social Board!!So,don mistaken it again!!!pls come an join us to vote for the new semester’s Mr an Ms Inti!!!

PS2: With Love…Everyday will be our anniversary….muack!!love u baby…

I’m not a strong girl,but i wish i m…

I wish tat my heart will be a little bit more tough…

Maybe i watch too much drama…

I wish i can suddenly find out tat im actually a princess for a little country…

I can rule the country with my own rule…

no drugs,no cigarette,no clubbing,no bad words,no spitting…

a country which is more displine than singapore…

but all of tat is jus a dream…

shall we believe tat once upon a time will come true??

will the princess an prince stay 2gether ever after??

m i the princess who bring out the whole story or jus the 1 who selling apple at a stall,showing her face for 2 second in the movie??

nobody no….

no matter wat…i wanna be more pretty,more kind hearted,more gentle,more acceptable…

The most important…not to be so jealousy…

i wan all my family,frens,an even stranger to love me more!!!

But 1st,i hav to love myself more….

Im not the best girl in the world…

I hav a big temper tat nobody can stand it when i start…

I hav a heart which dono how to love…

I hav long hair which i don allowed ppl to touch it…

I hav eyes which like to cry…

I hav brain which start headache when i smell cigarette…

I hav nose which start itchy when i smell cigarette…

I hav mouth which start scolding when im bu shuang…

I hav hands which don simply allowed anyone to hold…

I hav stomach which start aching when i smell cigarette…

I hav fingers which can type a blog when i feel i hav to…

But….

Im trying to be the best girl in the world…

Im trying my best to control my temper…

Im learning to love…keep learning…

I try to let others to touch my hair an don get angry…

I try to control my tears from dropping since the day…

Im trying not to hate cigarette so tat i wont headache…

Im learning not to smell cigarette when i smell it…

Im learning to think everything before i talk or scold…

Im learning to let those who love me to hold my hands…

Im trying to control my stomach so tat it will not hate cigarette…

I tried to type lesser an shorter an not to tell the truth in a public blog….

TATS REALITY…tat i don wish to face it…

haha!!im really a lucky girl lol~~i got good result…my lovely family..my dear baby…my best frens…an now i got a new puppy (xiao ke ai)…i love all of them sooo much!!!im so happy an i really hope every1 in tis world will be so happy an lucky too~~

last saturday i went for steaboat with my sec school frens…shao chong,yi vean,ah du,an also my dear baby~~haha!!actually my baby dowan to go with us…but i nag nag nag until he said ok…geng!he is really the best bf ever!!i hav to mention it again~coz really hard to find a bf who willing to acc his gf to class gathering…bad i lyn an ee ling…u all owe me a gathering huh~~haha!!although only 5 of us,but i really felt vvvvv happy…coz i no,i still hav frens who really no me…not only no im a blur person,but also no wat im really thinking…time really passes v fast,we already graduate 2 years…i think we really old liao,but luckly look young…hahaha!!i really happy..thanks frens~~although i ate so many fish balls…hehe!! ^_^ but we forgot to take pictures…but be positive!!we din take pictures tat mean we still will meet again…right??erm~~jus don rmb tat we cant find the steamboat place…tat part can forget..haha!!coz i really dono how to rmb road…go out with shao chong really funny..no need to talk also will feel a lot of ppl talking…dono y~hah!!an ah du…only giggle herself an enjoy herself with the triangle things…vean~~im really sorry tat until now,after i’ve written the autograph for 2 years only giv it to u…an really really sorry to make u cry again…haha!!cry baby,don cry liao la~~later anson scold me ah…hehe~~happy go lucky ah…

last week a little black puppy dono come from where an run into my granny house..weird man!!tis 2 years already got a lot of puppy run into my granny house…haha!!an i like it so much~~although his colour is not my favourite…but it really look vv cute…at first we tot tat the puppy got zi4 bi zheng4..or maybe bcoz she is black, she likes to hide at dark dark place..when u walk foward,she will walk backward..wanna touch her an she will quickly move backward..look like v scared like tat…then slowly i sayang her an she seems ok abit…an my sis said bcoz im same type as her(black)…an now she will walk here walk there…her fur is all black an i tot wanna call her blacky…but tis name really not nice…so decide to call her xiao ke ai…cutie!!really cute ler…heard the maid said the puppy was playing with an indian man who looks alike with the puppy before she run into my granny house…same black~~but the puppy not belongs to the indian man…they jus save her out from a longkang…so kesian…maybe xiao ke ai will be my christmas present loh!!haha~~so happy…

thank god for giving me such a wonderful family,frens,bf, an the christmas present which i’ve pray for so long…a puppy!!haha~~god bless every1 will be happy everyday….not forget too,i love u baby!!